Thimes's Neverland

bad in words ..

2010-07-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

i guese i am bad in words ,
how i explain more about myself in different language ?
different language between different minds ,
what mind would be thinking at the moment with my soul ....

just i knew it , i am bad in different language words ,
i just can't explain so much ,
but i had to say something for my painfully soul ,
could i using different language to shown that ...

i choose in different , i had chosen at the different place ,
to starting for my new journey ,
alonely for the trip , but strongly feel lonesome ...

i had chosen ,
perhads , i should be try until end ,
persist to the end ...
after someday , when i back towards look ,
isn't different to compare before ...

i wish so ,
but the fate can tell me the future ?
and the truth ....

how about it ?

2010-07-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

could i said that got already different ?
shouldn't be compare much for ,
i should dont know more about ,
but why i can be a part of that ?

sometime , something , somehow ...
we dont have any answers for the question ,
maybe only the way we choose the face of fate ,
somehow , somewhere , somewhy ,
if could the answers is reality ,
should i lead for the way ,
and to get what i want to ...

dont know why would be like that ,
dont know how much would be continute ,
the way who choosen ,
shouldn't much for enough ?

how about that ,
i lead my way to be ,
just to be searching for something what i needed ,
you never ever know what i am thinking about it ...

i got write much ...

2009-12-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

what happen to me ?

why today got alot things to write down ?

althought they are confusing feeling ?

i have no ideal about it ...

just i know i my feel are so blind ,

it hard to explain myself ,

it hard to said my lonely ...

a day disappear by a day ,

i have waste much about that think ...

i am bad for myself ,

cause i not have a way to go ...

is it i am losses ?

i dont know ....

today i got write so much ,

what the feel for that ...

i also dont know ...

but there just a memories ...

may i sing a birthday song ?

2009-08-24T11:29:00.002+08:00

shall i sing a birthday song to you ?
may i give some special wishing to you ?
shall i to know more about you feel ?

i am asking more about ,
now about your heart and the sadness feeling ...
i just wan to know ,
i am care about your feel ...
and your sadness mood ...

today is your birthday ,
but we can't meet ,
but i just only greeting to you ...

happy bithday to you ...

the person

2009-08-03T21:07:00.003+08:00

since the day after ,
i fall in the deep way ,
for the badlly solution ...

since i am came back the feeling ,
but that was no reallity ,
perhaps i am lately ...

i am lately to show it ,
about my feeling who loving you ...
thus , couldn't i escape from the pain ,
the love pain of feeling ...

i choose for waiting ,
just waiting for you love and your feel ....
maybe i am foolish for this moment ,
that i am crazy for looking you ?
crazy to finding your story ...

my love story how to write it ,
maybe it just hard to be explain it ...

i miss you ,
at these moment ....

give up for the love

2009-07-25T09:14:00.003+08:00

maybe , the result had a answer ,
the answer could be the best ,
but i knew ,
that no have important again ...

the story had be gone ,
perhaps , just now i only had accept ...

give the the love ,
learn how about to forget it ...

someday ago , how feel i feeling it ?
doesn't i no care too much ?
or i just give up to care more ...

perhaps , i like the memories ,
the unforgetable memories ,
i love you so much ,
just wanna you know ,
how i care about that ...

maybe i am hard to said anything ,
anything was happen ,
anything it too late ...
only i give up for the love ...

how are you ?

2009-07-18T08:38:00.002+08:00

how about you ?
maybe the words only can said it ,
what title would be i show it ?

that day after ,
you just change be another one,
what would you thinking about ...

aren't you escape form the truth ?
or you just feeling cooling for everything ,
perhaps , i am wrong action ...

that day after ,
i didn't forget the feel i care about you ,
i only can look it and waiting ...

just nothing can do for me ...

although , the truth ...
the other truth ...
would be my heart ,
and the feel i love to you ...

Love song

2009-07-16T17:54:00.002+08:00

i write a song for you ,
and putting all of my heart ,
to show what am i feeling about your love ...

i write about love poem to you ,
and to show what i am talent about my feeling ,
sometime about the deep feeling from my heart ...

i sing the song what i am wrote it ,
i sing the love song ,
to sing to your feel ...

how the melody would be touch you ,
how i am be sincerely to your heart ...

nothing be special for myself ,
just wanna write my feel to you ...
but could you hear about my song ande my heart ?
although , you never know ...

choosing the bad guy

2009-07-12T21:45:00.003+08:00

that day i was told the truth ,
but i must be wrong ,
that day after ,
i am to be your bad guy ...

maybe i am bad guy ...

that day whoever know what these would be happen ,
i must be foolish and stupid for that action ,
foolish things i do it ...
sure she cant believe ,
i am nothing can do just now ,
maybe you would to be resentful ...

something was happen ,
something truth cannot be changed ,
something i done cant to regret ,
sometime , that was be bad image ,
bad feeling for someone ....

i am loving you ,
but i am wrongly to do that ...
please hate me ,
as you can ...

i would choosing i am to be bad guy ,
please dont believe me ...

the lovely song ...

2009-07-12T11:03:00.002+08:00

feel lovely this song very much ,
when i listen over hundred and more times ,
the feel could be touching ,

perhaps , whenever feel lonely ,
we feel sadness ,
some words hard to explain ,
but i just wanna tell it what i feel ,
maybe i feeling alone ...

the melody would tell me ,
how feel to show me ,
and lead me to the fantasy ...

somehow ,
i need careless by somebody ,
but i dont know how to request ,
maybe i dont want sympathy from someone ...

today i feel better from yesterday ,
but i have unforgetable that ...
maybe i much carely that things ...

today i am missing you again ..
but you would dont know about that ..

dear my dear

2009-07-11T08:33:00.003+08:00

i am show to be concerned with ,
care about your emotion ,
what you wanna be sharing ...

i am not strange to you ,
whatever you didnt needed ,
but i am still be your side ...

whatever you are sadness ,
i am your listeners ,
did you feel warm ?
but i am still be tired hard ,
to given you warm ...

just no matter i lost myself ,
but i am remember you ,
the promise and the secret ...

when did you dont need to accompany ,
never mind you just leave to me ,
i still to wait for when you need me ...

dear my dear ,
i am missing you ...

bad mood

2009-07-10T20:28:00.002+08:00

feel bad mood today ,
my knee feel pain again ,
my knee got injure before ,
it never be cure perfectly ,
sometime when i will be big action ,
my knee got injure again ...

it hard to me when keep walking ,
but my job wanna me keep walkling ,
feel painful and i am feel a little angry..

i am bad mood today ,
not just because my knee feel painfully ,
but my heart got some bad feeling ...

feeling alone when i wanna share someting ...

feeling you are far with me ,
we dont have the same timming again ,
thinking you are far with me ,
feel strange to me ...

my heart still got injure ,
who would know my feel ?
who would Sympathy to me ?
although i dont want lets other know ...

i am feel sadness ,
when i missing you ...

you never feel that ...

unfair !!

2009-07-09T22:03:00.002+08:00

everythings is unfair ,
job of the work ,
relationship got unfair ,
the reality got unfair ,
the managment is unfair ...

a lot thing got unfair ,
love is unfair ...

just i knew it ,
a lot things cant be we control ,
we just only follow up ,
cant be change anything ,
anything or everthing we hate about it ...

i knew ,
i am hate to the reality relationship ,
hate the unfair to me ...

just anyone could tell me ,
why the fate doesnt be good for me ,
just alway kidding to me ,
just wanted me painful ,
and never got the beautifully result ,
i got pain to my life ...

just feeling unfair was more by more ,
wasnt it might be my great life ?

feel sadness

2009-07-09T14:54:00.003+08:00

feel bore today ...

i feel i am scare to face you ,
somehow i am thinking much about my feeling ,
what i am feel just now ?
did i care so much about you ?

why ?
why dont have the chance ,
to nearly with you ,
it i am strange fo you ?
you just feel strange to me ...

i am little sadness ...

just now , i am missing so much ,
i am missing you ...
did you feel it ?

something about missing ...

2009-07-08T22:16:00.002+08:00

today i have missing you again ...

somehow i care so much ,
we are rare in chating ...
we both busy in activities ,
but why could we have more minute to chat ,
maybe just only a regard ,
it enough to me if got your greeting ...

sometime , i have talk to myself ,
what can i give you ?
type of care about you ,
just what matter about action ,
to show something ...

tonight i sing alone with my lovely songs ,
just wanna sceam with my true emotion ,
feel tired for this few days ,
what i am thinking about ,
just i am bad for anything ,
or i just cant be some prefect man ...

i listening my love songs ,
but i feel nothing ,
it nothing special feeling in my heart ...
i am lost way ...

today , i missing you again ,
just wanna tell you ...
but there was no chance ...
i am bad ...

The secret ...

2009-07-07T21:47:00.004+08:00

never told anyone .
what is my true love was ...

maybe ,
at the moment ,
i had missing someone ,
it was very much for ...

i never expression anything ,
didn't told anyone about things ...
i have to secret that ,
to protec the relations with her ...
maybe now as the best condition ,
maybe she will escape when known the truth ...

sometime , i was lost my mind ,
maybe i care about her ,
maybe i care her things ...

how could i act again ,
how could i lie to myself ,
and how i face to her but donno how i do ...

should let her know ?
or should be secreting ?
i got deep feel ...
all about her ...
perhaps , i fall in love ....

chating more words ...

2009-07-07T21:02:00.003+08:00

sometime i will thinking about it ...
how to find more title of chat ,
and how to chat much with friend ...

gradually , some words it hard to explain ,
some feel wasn't tell in the moment ,
somehow ,
why i scare more about that ...

Today , it just a little chating only ,
the timming was just lost balance ,
i wishing i could be chating more with you ,
whatever things ,
i just wanna hear more your voice ...

maybe , today i got foolish act ,
i have waiting you ...
until you come back ...

why i dont have chance acompany with you ?

maybe , my chance never come yet ,
i be waiting the chance ,
the chance i show you about my heart feeling ...

i miss you ,
it true thing about ...
everytime ,
every moment ...
i

Starting with English Life ...

2009-07-07T08:52:00.004+08:00

I created the new blog with using english laguage ,
it was hard to me to using english for writing something ,
but i am sure i could be well ...

i just to try something different for my article ,
to share my lifestyle ,
and also share something secret ...
some word hard to saying in my life ...

anyway , i am try to my best ,
to show sometings what i want to tell to myself ...